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Fic: Illogical Bliss
As I've mentioned, I do occasionally write fic (so far all SPN/SPN RPF). As I move forward with that, I'd like to start cross-posting my fics here. I already have several up on my AO3, but I learn best by doing, so I'm going to post them here too. That's the goal, at least. I'd appreciate any feedback on my fic-posting 'style' (and I'll gladly accept any tips/suggestions/advice to make it better), and, of course, I'd love to hear your thoughts on the story itself. This first one is also the first fic I ever wrote for SPN. I hope you enjoy it! Thank you for reading! <3
Title: Illogical Bliss
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: gen, no pairing
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Word Count: ~ 1.3K
Original Post Date: May 26, 2015 on AO3
Author's Note: This is the first fanfic I ever wrote for the Supernatural fandom
Summary: Sam Winchester may not have a happy life, but he's learned to appreciate the moments that make him happy.
Sam Winchester wouldn't say he lived a happy life. Just the thought made him chuckle at the understatement. No, his existence had been about as removed from happy as it could get, for as long as he could remember. Even when he was a child - what ought to be the most carefree years - Sam's life had been riddled with death, and pain, and uncertainty. When he'd been but an infant, his mother was brutally murdered by a powerful demon - and that was only the beginning of young Sam's troubles. Raised to be hunters by their revenge-obsessed father, he and his older brother Dean had been trained at a very early age to hone only what skills they needed to survive; monster-hunting did not allow for such luxuries as 'normalcy', or 'childhood'. And moving from town to town, in the constant search for the demon that had destroyed their family and changed their lives forever, left little time for Sam to make friends, to explore hobbies, or, hell, even to study. Though they often butted heads (especially when it came to 'the family business'), his only constant friend was his brother Dean. Any 'hobbies' Sam developed had to fit well with their mobile lifestyle (like reading), or else they were somehow related to hunting (like the handy skill of lock-picking). And studying was often put on the back burner or abandoned completely when there was research to be done, either in the search for his mother's killer, or on other smaller cases they picked up as they traveled across the country.
Attending Stanford had been Sam's attempt to claim some semblance of normalcy for himself. And, for the majority of his undergraduate studies, he had been pleasantly successful. The few years he'd spent there remained the brightest patch of sunshine in the otherwise dark and stormy narrative that was his life. But Destiny - Fate, the Powers That Be, God - had had different plans for him, and he abruptly found himself tossed back into the shadows, forced to admit that it was impossible to escape his past, and that, try as he might, he could no longer ignore the demons (both metaphorical and literal) that haunted him. Sam really wished he could say that leaving college had been his choice; but after being awoken by his girlfriend burning on the ceiling (the EXACT manner in which his mother had also died), any other option had become invalid. He'd joined forces with his brother once again, following the trail left by their father to find the demon responsible for the deaths of their loved ones, and laying waste to any supernatural sons-of-bitches that got in their way.
The road so far had been a rough one, full of unexpected twists and turns that often left Sam reeling in his seat. The further they traveled, the more complicated their mission became; the world was ever widening around them, forcibly revealing some of its deepest, most terrible secrets. There were creatures, and spirits, and curses beyond anything Sam could have ever prepared for. There were powerful beings with the ability and intent to manipulate events on an epic scale, both for good and for evil, and, more often than not, the boys found themselves inextricably involved. Dean called it an 'occupational hazard;' Sam called it the universe fucking with them. They weren't always collateral damage, but no matter where they went or what they did, the brothers invariably ended up battered and scarred somehow.
And it wasn't just monsters, evil spirits, and powers of light vs. darkness that they fought. Sometimes they fought with each other, whenever the stresses of traveling together became unbearable, or when the pressure of forces beyond their control manifested in anger and frustration. Adversely, they also fought for each other, desperately, recklessly facing both Heaven and Hell to keep the other alive and safe. And, too often it seemed, they fought the tendency for evil within themselves, continually wresting the other away from the proverbial edge. Their lives were difficult - a hunter's life is never easy, and theirs even less so - but they fought tooth and nail to ensure that they persevered, living to fight anew every day.
Sam acknowledged that it wasn't always so bad. They'd killed a lot of monsters, dispatched plenty of evil spirits, and helped an awful lot of people along the way. The brothers had rescued each other more times than they could count. But, despite all the positive aspects of saving the world on a fairly regular basis, Sam still wouldn't describe his life as a happy one. He'd suffered more heartache, and loss, and pain than most people would in ten lifetimes. And Dean had too. They'd been downright heroes on more than one occasion, but, apparently, karma, or The Force, or whatever entity it was that 'kept score' out there, had decided that their good deeds could not go unpunished. Maintaining balance in the universe and all that shit, or something. Sam tried not to think too much about it, instead doing his best to accept his life as it was, and to find contentment wherever he could.
Which is how he found himself now, riding beside his brother in the passenger seat of Dean's Baby, their home, a sleek black '67 Impala. Both windows were rolled down, the warm breeze gently skimming long, sun-kissed strands of Sam's hair across his face. Dean was softly humming along with some classic rock song playing low from the old speakers, a small smile flickering across his lips. Usually the tunes would be cranked to the max; but on days like today, with nothing but open road before them and nowhere for them to be anytime fast, Dean liked to keep the radio quiet, providing a musical backdrop for the companionable silence between the brothers. It was early spring still wherever they were - somewhere in the upper Midwest - and a beautiful day for a drive; the sun beaming down, not one cloud in the almost painfully blue sky, every tree painted in the particular spring-green shade of leaves that have just started to unfurl. They cruised past open fields still too wet for planting, yet smattered in green anyway, tiny buds from seeds leftover from last year's crops pressing hopefully through the earth and seeking the rays of the sun. The world stretched out wide before them, and Dean's eyes gleamed in pleasure as his Baby roared cheerfully over the rolling hills of farm country.
Sam may not have a happy life, but he does have a life in which he's learned to cherish the few happy moments. Here on the road with his brother is where he's admitted, finally, that he is meant to be, for better or for worse, come the good and the bad. Today's travels are definitely of the good; pretty soon, they'll come upon some small Midwestern town and stop at some quaint little diner for lunch. Dean especially loves the places that specialize in burgers and malts; Sam secretly does too. Then they'll continue on to the next little town, or until they find one with a cheap motel where they can stay overnight. They'll drive through the night, if they have to - riding under a sky full of stars has its breathtaking moments too - but Sam likes it best when they can have some beers and a game or two of pool at the local bar before crashing in actual beds.
********************************************************
The brief worry of where they'll sleep that night is chased from Sam's mind as Dean turns up the radio and starts singing in earnest with one of his favorite songs. Sam flashes a brilliant smile at his brother, reveling in the moment, before closing his eyes and resting his head against the well-worn leather seat, savoring the feel of the fresh air and the warm sun against his face. He lets the off-key singing of his older brother wash over him, an oddly beautiful lullaby. Dean's uninhibited, tone-deaf serenading, the perfect weather, and the gentle rumblings of the Impala combine to immerse Sam Winchester in a rare moment of pure happiness, and he drifts peacefully off to sleep.
Title: Illogical Bliss
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: gen, no pairing
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Word Count: ~ 1.3K
Original Post Date: May 26, 2015 on AO3
Author's Note: This is the first fanfic I ever wrote for the Supernatural fandom
Summary: Sam Winchester may not have a happy life, but he's learned to appreciate the moments that make him happy.
Sam Winchester wouldn't say he lived a happy life. Just the thought made him chuckle at the understatement. No, his existence had been about as removed from happy as it could get, for as long as he could remember. Even when he was a child - what ought to be the most carefree years - Sam's life had been riddled with death, and pain, and uncertainty. When he'd been but an infant, his mother was brutally murdered by a powerful demon - and that was only the beginning of young Sam's troubles. Raised to be hunters by their revenge-obsessed father, he and his older brother Dean had been trained at a very early age to hone only what skills they needed to survive; monster-hunting did not allow for such luxuries as 'normalcy', or 'childhood'. And moving from town to town, in the constant search for the demon that had destroyed their family and changed their lives forever, left little time for Sam to make friends, to explore hobbies, or, hell, even to study. Though they often butted heads (especially when it came to 'the family business'), his only constant friend was his brother Dean. Any 'hobbies' Sam developed had to fit well with their mobile lifestyle (like reading), or else they were somehow related to hunting (like the handy skill of lock-picking). And studying was often put on the back burner or abandoned completely when there was research to be done, either in the search for his mother's killer, or on other smaller cases they picked up as they traveled across the country.
Attending Stanford had been Sam's attempt to claim some semblance of normalcy for himself. And, for the majority of his undergraduate studies, he had been pleasantly successful. The few years he'd spent there remained the brightest patch of sunshine in the otherwise dark and stormy narrative that was his life. But Destiny - Fate, the Powers That Be, God - had had different plans for him, and he abruptly found himself tossed back into the shadows, forced to admit that it was impossible to escape his past, and that, try as he might, he could no longer ignore the demons (both metaphorical and literal) that haunted him. Sam really wished he could say that leaving college had been his choice; but after being awoken by his girlfriend burning on the ceiling (the EXACT manner in which his mother had also died), any other option had become invalid. He'd joined forces with his brother once again, following the trail left by their father to find the demon responsible for the deaths of their loved ones, and laying waste to any supernatural sons-of-bitches that got in their way.
The road so far had been a rough one, full of unexpected twists and turns that often left Sam reeling in his seat. The further they traveled, the more complicated their mission became; the world was ever widening around them, forcibly revealing some of its deepest, most terrible secrets. There were creatures, and spirits, and curses beyond anything Sam could have ever prepared for. There were powerful beings with the ability and intent to manipulate events on an epic scale, both for good and for evil, and, more often than not, the boys found themselves inextricably involved. Dean called it an 'occupational hazard;' Sam called it the universe fucking with them. They weren't always collateral damage, but no matter where they went or what they did, the brothers invariably ended up battered and scarred somehow.
And it wasn't just monsters, evil spirits, and powers of light vs. darkness that they fought. Sometimes they fought with each other, whenever the stresses of traveling together became unbearable, or when the pressure of forces beyond their control manifested in anger and frustration. Adversely, they also fought for each other, desperately, recklessly facing both Heaven and Hell to keep the other alive and safe. And, too often it seemed, they fought the tendency for evil within themselves, continually wresting the other away from the proverbial edge. Their lives were difficult - a hunter's life is never easy, and theirs even less so - but they fought tooth and nail to ensure that they persevered, living to fight anew every day.
Sam acknowledged that it wasn't always so bad. They'd killed a lot of monsters, dispatched plenty of evil spirits, and helped an awful lot of people along the way. The brothers had rescued each other more times than they could count. But, despite all the positive aspects of saving the world on a fairly regular basis, Sam still wouldn't describe his life as a happy one. He'd suffered more heartache, and loss, and pain than most people would in ten lifetimes. And Dean had too. They'd been downright heroes on more than one occasion, but, apparently, karma, or The Force, or whatever entity it was that 'kept score' out there, had decided that their good deeds could not go unpunished. Maintaining balance in the universe and all that shit, or something. Sam tried not to think too much about it, instead doing his best to accept his life as it was, and to find contentment wherever he could.
Which is how he found himself now, riding beside his brother in the passenger seat of Dean's Baby, their home, a sleek black '67 Impala. Both windows were rolled down, the warm breeze gently skimming long, sun-kissed strands of Sam's hair across his face. Dean was softly humming along with some classic rock song playing low from the old speakers, a small smile flickering across his lips. Usually the tunes would be cranked to the max; but on days like today, with nothing but open road before them and nowhere for them to be anytime fast, Dean liked to keep the radio quiet, providing a musical backdrop for the companionable silence between the brothers. It was early spring still wherever they were - somewhere in the upper Midwest - and a beautiful day for a drive; the sun beaming down, not one cloud in the almost painfully blue sky, every tree painted in the particular spring-green shade of leaves that have just started to unfurl. They cruised past open fields still too wet for planting, yet smattered in green anyway, tiny buds from seeds leftover from last year's crops pressing hopefully through the earth and seeking the rays of the sun. The world stretched out wide before them, and Dean's eyes gleamed in pleasure as his Baby roared cheerfully over the rolling hills of farm country.
Sam may not have a happy life, but he does have a life in which he's learned to cherish the few happy moments. Here on the road with his brother is where he's admitted, finally, that he is meant to be, for better or for worse, come the good and the bad. Today's travels are definitely of the good; pretty soon, they'll come upon some small Midwestern town and stop at some quaint little diner for lunch. Dean especially loves the places that specialize in burgers and malts; Sam secretly does too. Then they'll continue on to the next little town, or until they find one with a cheap motel where they can stay overnight. They'll drive through the night, if they have to - riding under a sky full of stars has its breathtaking moments too - but Sam likes it best when they can have some beers and a game or two of pool at the local bar before crashing in actual beds.
********************************************************
The brief worry of where they'll sleep that night is chased from Sam's mind as Dean turns up the radio and starts singing in earnest with one of his favorite songs. Sam flashes a brilliant smile at his brother, reveling in the moment, before closing his eyes and resting his head against the well-worn leather seat, savoring the feel of the fresh air and the warm sun against his face. He lets the off-key singing of his older brother wash over him, an oddly beautiful lullaby. Dean's uninhibited, tone-deaf serenading, the perfect weather, and the gentle rumblings of the Impala combine to immerse Sam Winchester in a rare moment of pure happiness, and he drifts peacefully off to sleep.